Do you know who you REALLY are?
If you've spent a big part of your life trying to lose weight, the answer to that question may be "NO".
I know this because most of MY life was spent fighting, striving and hoping to be thin. After 25 years of ups and downs (mostly downs) I ended my relationship with dieting and the constant pursuit of weight loss.
It was sucking the life out of me and I just couldn't do it anymore.
Here's what I've learned from my experience in dieting hell: When you spend more than half your life searching for your self-worth in a number on a scale or the food on your plate, you become disconnected from who you are as a human being.
It's hard to see your true self if you're up to your eyeballs in food rules and 10-day detoxes.
From the time I was 11 years old, I thought that constantly researching new diets and workouts in magazines was just a part of being a woman. I believed losing weight was one of the most important things I could do in life, which is why I dedicated so much damn time to it.
Thank God I had an awakening a few years ago and I discovered that there was a bigger purpose for my life.
I knew there was a woman hiding underneath the person who was always striving to be a few sizes smaller, a few pounds lighter, and a whole lot more beautiful, lovable, and worthy.
I wanted to find out who she is. I NEEDED to know.
Ever since I've given up dieting, I've had a lot more head space, emotional space, and space in my calendar to get to know myself better. Here's what I discovered:
- I'm already lovable, beautiful, and worthy...no weight-loss required.
- I'm extremely creative.
- I don't need to be a smaller size to make a positive impact on my life or the lives of others.
- I have something to say and the world needs to hear it.
The real me has good feelings and bad ones, and I choose to FEEL all of them.
The real me loves people (but sometimes I don't).
The real me cries a few times a week...and doesn't feel ashamed of it.
I'm so ME right now it's not even funny. And I discover even more about myself daily.
The notion that life gets better when your body gets smaller is complete bullshit.
Life didn't get better because of HOW I LOOKED.
Life got better when I let go of the rules about how I should look and what I should eat.
Life got better when I decided to FEEL better about myself.
If I hadn't stopped my relentless pursuit of thinness, I'd still be chasing 120 pounds on the scale and trying to live on 1300 life-sucking calories a day. I'd still be hating my body and refusing to buy clothes until I could fit into a size 2.
I wouldn't have started my business, and I wouldn't be writing this note to you today.
I promise you: when you finally end your lifelong pursuit of being smaller, you'll discover the REAL you too.